That’s two children —two of my children— diagnosed with type 1 diabetes in less than 6 months. Why?? God only knows.
Our 4yr. old Matthew has just been diagnosed with type 1 diabetes —just like his 8yr. old sister Maggie not five months ago. Thankfully we saw the signs and caught it early but he is still sick. We took him to the hospital Sat. night and because his blood glucose numbers continue to go very high (over 600) he is still there. He’ll be “OK” but of course, as long as he has this blasted disease he won’t be completely OK.
Life is so very unfair sometimes. I’m sorry if I sound like I’m whining, I suppose I am. I’m operating on very little sleep and my emotions are rather raw at the moment. How anyone manages to actually sleep in a hospital I will never know. I feel like a total zombie. Tim has insisted that he will stay with Matthew tonight so that I can sleep in my own bed and I do not have the energy to argue otherwise. Matthew seems fine with the idea since he is quite the Daddy’s boy and by now is feeling much more comfortable with the whole hospital situation. The nurses are great and he is enjoying the attention (and too much TV!). He’s getting used to all the shots and finger pokes but still has a really hard time with the blood draws (3 - 4 x daily until we are sure he is completely out of ketosis and those blood glucose numbers come down. Because we caught it early he didn’t go into diabtetic ketoacidosis as Maggie did, so his condition is much less critical than hers was).
It’s been a rough couple of days to say the least. I know it does no good to ask why and yet two children getting diabetes in less than 6 months just begs the question. I know God has a plan, I just can’t see any inkling of it at the moment. I am perplexed and even somewhat angry.
Of course in many ways I do see things differently this time but then again because I know more that’s not necessarily a good thing. I know what it means to deal with this disease and admittedly in my current state of exhaustion knowing that I will be managing TWO children with it is a bit overwhelming. I know God will give us the strength and courage we need but I also know He’s willing to push us to the outer limits some days. I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that scares me a little bit.
To those who have been praying —thank you. I do not doubt your prayers have been a blessing. Do please continue to pray for Matthew and all of us as we adjust to another “new normal” and if you will, please pray with me for my other children who will unfortunately be under my constant scrutiny. I’m already wont to test someone’s blood sugar if they aren’t feeling well and given the events of the last few days I am sure that will only increase. In fact the pediatrician suggested I keep a very close eye on the other little ones. I will be indeed.
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Ellen 09.29.08 at 7:56 pm
Michele,
I am so sorry to hear that lightning has struck twice. It certainly isn’t fair to children to have this awful disease. I hope this is the end of the line with diabetes in your family.
I will remember your son and your family in my prayers.
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Christie 09.29.08 at 8:01 pm
Oh Michele, I am so sorry you are dealing with this yet again. You are right though, God does indeed have a plan…it’s just hard to see it when we are swimming in the deep end. Remember, He calms the storms and He is always there amidst the chaos.
Remembering you and yours during our evening prayers….
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Grace 09.29.08 at 8:01 pm
My prayers go out to you, your little ones and all your family. Take care of yourself so you can care for your family.
Kristen Laurence 09.29.08 at 8:38 pm
Michelle, my prayers ARE with you! My younger brother and I are both Type I diabetics, and life has been very good to both of us! Please feel free to contact me at any time whatsoever if you have any questions, or need to talk. My diabetes has been a huge blessing to me, and it will be for your children as well. God bless you, and give you grace and courage and peace. Yes, peace will come!
joann10 09.29.08 at 8:42 pm
Michele, I feel so sorry for Matthew. I will be keeping you all in my prayers.
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Amy 09.29.08 at 8:51 pm
Praying for all of you, especially strength and grace for you Michelle!
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Meredith from Merchant Ships 09.29.08 at 9:04 pm
Bless your heart! I know this is a difficult challenge to face. Getting through my pregnancy with gestational diabetes has given me so much empathy for my diabetic husband.
I hope that having some sibling support will enable each of your children to grow and manage this disease better than they ever could alone.
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Bridget 09.29.08 at 10:02 pm
This is very concerning indeed! I have read speculation that it’s caused by a virus. I’ll be praying for all of you Michele!
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+JMJ+ @ TotusTuusFamily 09.29.08 at 10:09 pm
I can sympathize with your shock and the overwhelming-ness of it all. What is God’s plan in all this remains to be seen, but we know His plans ARE perfect.
I have heard that when you go thru something painful in waves, it’s like childbirth. God will birth something new from you. Certainly new strength and greater reliance on Him.
Will lift an AVE for you all now.
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M.E. 09.29.08 at 10:30 pm
Oh, Michele, I’ll keep you all in my prayers. God bless.
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Jennifer G. Miller 09.29.08 at 11:15 pm
We’re continuing to keep Matthew in our prayers, and for you and your husband. You just must be completely reeling. Having been diabetic in pregnancy, I know how you have to be constantly, constantly thinking about the blood sugar situation.
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Wendy (back) in VA 09.29.08 at 11:42 pm
We’ll continue to pray for all of you, Michele.
Meredith 09.29.08 at 11:53 pm
Still praying sweetie and God bless you all!
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Jamie 09.30.08 at 12:52 am
I will be praying for you. I’m sure it will be hard. I’m sure this will bring the two of them closer as they help eachother out through life. I am a diabetic and have been since I was 10. Recently another homeschooling family had a son also age 10 that became a diabetic. They totally are convinced it is from immunizing. I had not heard of this for diabetes. (I have for other things, but not this) Just curious if they have both maybe been immunized? Just a thought…
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Donna 09.30.08 at 5:00 am
Oh, Michele, my heart goes out to you. Many prayers for grace being offered.
Mary G. 09.30.08 at 5:29 am
praying dear …. hope you all adjust smoothly to this “new normal”
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aussieannie 09.30.08 at 6:13 am
I am so sorry to read this. This is definately hard trial and cross for you and your dear children, remembering you in prayer Michelle!
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Marianne 09.30.08 at 6:21 am
Praying for your son and all that you have been through. May God give you his peace…
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Nancy 09.30.08 at 6:48 am
I feel like I’ve been kicked in the gut. I check my other children when they get sick too. Poor children in my house whom I notice in the bathroom more often then normal, they get a finger poke too. I’m praying and offering up all my diabetes woes for you this week. Stay strong!
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Diana 09.30.08 at 7:41 am
Hi Michelle,
I am sorry you all are going through so much stress. I, too, have multiple children with the same syndrome, (not diabetes), and our lives revolve around multiple doctor appts, keeping kids breathing….you know…little things like that!! One day at a time….that is the only way we can get through all of this stuff, one day at a time with God’s Grace!! (and He usually doesn’t give us one ounce more than we need!!)
Praying for all of you!
Diana
Ruth 09.30.08 at 7:41 am
I’m so sorry, Michele. I will continue to keep your family in my prayers.
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nancy 09.30.08 at 8:33 am
Michelle,
Please know that you and your family are in my prayers. You will get through this and think of the all the people that now know of this disease because you have chosen to share your personal and private experience.
God Bless you all.
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Louise 09.30.08 at 8:34 am
Dear Michele, you and Matthiew are in my prayers. I can just imagine the questions, and fear you must have. I am gald you are able to talk about them here. I am sending you a big hug. May Mary’s mantle be wrapped around you to soften some of this blow.
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Chris Volpe 09.30.08 at 8:45 am
Michele,
I was so sorry to read this. We will keep Matthew in prayer.. and your whole family.
Colleen 09.30.08 at 8:58 am
Michele–You and the kids are in our daily prayers. May God give you the grace and strength to walk in this and may He give Matthew and Maggie healing, health, and joy.
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Molly 09.30.08 at 9:36 am
Michele,
Praying for you and your children!
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Susan (Taffy) 09.30.08 at 10:27 am
You have my prayers Michele. I’ve also heard the speculation about a virus causing Type 1 diabetes so I agree with keeping an eye out.
I sympathize. I have two with diet issues but I don’t have to worry about consistent feeding times and count carbs like you do. Again, you have my prayers.
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Rebecca 09.30.08 at 11:24 am
Michele, I will pray for all of you. Hang in there and try to get some rest today if you can catch a few winks. I know you must be exhausted and worried but know that God has not forsaken you or your family. This will all come to good though it is hard to see right now. Love, Rebecca
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Sine 09.30.08 at 12:11 pm
I am praying for you and your family. This verse has comforted me through a lot of hard times so I thought I should share it with you.
But those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:31
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Jennifer 09.30.08 at 1:49 pm
Michelle, I just popped in here to see if you had a new, and my heart sank when I read the post. Please know that you and your family will be in my prayers. I don’t know what plan God has for you and your children, but He does know the bigger picture, and it is scary, especially when we are getting the feeling that He’s really trusting us (like Mother Teresa said, “I wish He didn’t trust me so much!”). My fourth child was in and out of the hospital from the age of seven weeks to five months, and many a night I slept in a PICU. It is hard to balance home life with sleeping in the “bed” they offer there, but it’s good that you’re letting your husband stay. You need your sleep or you will be no good to the sick child, or anyone else. Many, many prayers and we’ll be back to check up on you.
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KC 09.30.08 at 3:03 pm
Michele, big hugs!! I am praying for you, Matthew and your family.
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Elizabeth H 09.30.08 at 5:24 pm
Oh, Michele! Praying for you all.
Leonie 09.30.08 at 6:26 pm
Oh, dear, will say prayers. I am diabetic, so I undersatnd…
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Jennifer in TX 09.30.08 at 7:49 pm
Michele,
I am adding my heartfelt prayers to everyone’s and please know that our Rosary tonight will be especially for you and your dear family, esp. Matthew.
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Mare 09.30.08 at 10:03 pm
My prayers are with Matthew and your family.
Susan Dow 09.30.08 at 11:27 pm
Prayers for you and your family…
God Bless You,
Sue
Melissa Bare 10.02.08 at 4:58 pm
Oh Shell and Tim,
I am so sorry ~ this will only make you stronger.
You already know that and of course you know it is alright to be mad at God. He dosen’t mind. You know that. He can handle anything.
I am wondering where this came from I have never heard Diabeties in our family. Is it in Tim’s family?
Kimberly 10.03.08 at 9:14 am
Michelle:
Prayers for you and your dear, dear family!! Just a few moments ago, my youngest daughter brought me a cherished holy card, one that I’ve had for years and thought had been lost. Padre Pio, now St. Pio of Pietrelcina. Here is the message of the back of the card:
“Pray, hope and don’t worry. Worry is useless. God is merciful and will hear your prayer.”
This is for you, Michelle. God is listening. He is merciful. It’s so hard to try to make sense of the insensible. Our family is praying a nightly rosary throughout the month of October. You will be remembered every night as we pray.
God grant you strength and comfort.
And peace…
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