On second thought. . .
In my previous post I wrote that I was working on detailed lesson plans for level 3. Turns out I’m not - not this year anyway. As I began working on them one thing has become very clear; this isn’t the way I want to do this.
While I love having the framework of Mater Amabilis, I also love having the freedom to order our days any way we want. We lost that this past year by doing cyber school. I don’t regret it totally as it gave me a much needed break but now I feel a renewed sense of purpose and I am truly looking forward to the coming school year. It is going to be a VERY Charlotte Mason year - right down to the Wellies I bought everyone for our nature hikes! I figure I can spend my time working on those lesson plans or I can spend it with my kids. I’m going for the latter.
You know, I turned 40 last week and I have been spending a good bit of time reflecting on my life, who I am and who I yet want to become. When I die I don’t want my legacy to be my business or some curriculum. I want it to be my children. Their testimony of Faith and witness to it. And I want them to remember their mother as someone who was involved with their lives and paid attention TO THEM. As someone who taught them what it meant to be a Christian and how to love God. I can’t do that if I am wrapped up in other things. I have TONS of ideas for new products but I’m not pursing them. I am just going to continue selling my little planner and be a mom to my kids - God willing, a really good mom.
I WILL be getting level 5 up soon. That’s Kevin plan for this year so I’m working on it now. Level 6 will come when it comes. Wow it feels really good to write that!
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Jul 21, 2007 - 02:07:47Applause - applause! In the last three days, I have had this same conversation with my husband, my mother, my best friend, and my oldest daughter. I have been wrapping myself up in volunteer work. While it may be admirable, being wrapped up in other activities is lessening the good impact I could be having on my family. It’s nice to know that I’m not the only mom who feels this way!
Good for you Paula!